LaLa Land

As he is entering into dream land I am lost in reality. 
wondering where the love in my palm went. 
wondering how dumb was I to think that if he loved me he would put a bring on it. 
No instead he put an invisible leash on my heart and walked out on it. 
My heart skips a beat every time there is a tug on my leash. 
Every time there is a kiss on my lips or his soft mocha brown hands caressing my body. 
But then he turns the channel again because my station is once again boring. 
He comes around like the sun just to rotate my axis but does not realize that I am 
the planet his sun revolves around. 
I need someone around 365 days of a year. 
I'm not no Easter holiday love. 
You only wanna love me whenever CVS put out the 
Easter baskets. 
Then you tug at my heart and tell me that I am your favorite 
candy for this season. 
I want you year around so I don't mind being camouflage 
and fade into your background until its time for me to reappear. 
The idea of having you once in a while beats not having you at all. 
A little girl gave her heart to a young boy who turned into a grown man, 
who molested her for her love and left. 
Leaving this invisible leash around my heart. 
And every time he yell in his smooth barrow tone voice "come her girl" I go running. 
He ain't the only one sleeping. 
I'm awake and dreaming. 
Keep pressing the snooze button hoping I 
could just get fifteen more minutes left out of this dream before the sleeping 
pills I took to make me think this love will last forever wear off.