“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.”
I can not make excuses for others who do not believe that love is timeless. he has decided to do what is best for him and over the years I have been doing what is best for my heart. Which means that I have followed him through out his life. Holding grudges but still loving him. While he is polishing his self, I am bruising my ego, bruising my heart and bruising my character. I have attached myself to him so much that I don't know who I am. I do not know the difference between being in love and being myself. Over the years I gave myself to him but it seems like instead of giving him my heart I gave him my soul. I lost me before I had a chance to find out who I was. College flew pass because of the drama that occurred with him. I regret not living for me, doing for him, He has been there for me through thick and thin and I will always love him for that. But when your in love there is no IOU's and in many times I feel like I owed him, when we grew together but never had time to grow apart. I am afraid that us growing apart wouldn't bring us back together. A man like him, a love like ours should not be split, but everything needs oxygen. I do not want to set him free but rather give us time to grow. They say don't burn bridges, and this is a bridge that connects to my heart. I need to experience life, have fun with the girls, make random dudes drool. Im listening to my heart because it will remain with Ossie but my life is mine and I need to to take the step forward. I need to stand on my own two feet and stupid being scared to move from him. I can't live for no one else but me. I have watched things pass me by, classes fall victim to this love because I lost myself in trying to keep up with all the events that went on with this love. I needed balance, balance to be me and love him. Once I am able to discover me as a person and not me with him. Then I can be better for me and hopefully better for him if the time is right.
Simply Me
- Lady_ Learner
- A lady who has left the girl life behind. A lady coming into her own, ready to make a stamp on the world. Fear what is that...HA I laugh at that, I eat it for breakfast. Never underestimate my tears. You may be able to knock me down. But you damn sure. Can't keep me down. I walk on the same grounds you do. But my dreams and aspirations are far above you. So I ask again What is fear? Is that what I smell coming off you.... let Lady_ Learner teach you how its done **kisses**
“Art is the window to man's soul. Without it, he would never be able to see beyond his immediate world; nor could the world see the man within.”
Dancing is like dreaming with your feet! ~Constanze
Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.
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