Today, Tomorrow

Today was the first day that I didn't want to tell you that I missed you.
Today was the first day I held my pillow wondering if you would be back.
Last week was the first time you kept a dark secret from me
Last month was the first time I seen a limit to our relationship.
Last year was the first time I ever been betrayed so deeply.
Last year was the first time the tables were turned and you were in control.

Today I want to stand up and say that I will not fall victim to the small talk but I said that last week.
Today I need to find the values of love and evaluate if today, last week, last month, last year will allow me to see tomorrow clearly.
Tomorrow I want to walk with my head high.
But I need to look at the path and pick the right direction.