Dear Daughter

Dear Daughter,

I vow to protect you and give my life making sure that you are safe. I will never let harm come your way. And I will never let anyone take advantage of you. My mom tried to do the best she could to raise me, but not having no help made it hard for her. See I don't want you to go through what I have been through because it leaves a scar on your life. I want you to enjoy life, never look at a man funny because of what someone has done to you in your past. I will not leave you with anyone I do not trust, they must protect you as if they were your parents. Your childhood will be guarded so that your future will not have demons. I apologize in advance for overly protecting you but I live my life so that I can try to protect yours. I never want you to have to relive a dark past, I want you to be better than you mother.

I wish

After a rainy night I looked up on the sky and there were ten stars glowing
I decided to make ten wishes and one day I hope they will come true
I wish you call me in the middle of the night and tell me to come open the door because you wanted to be with me.
I wish you would write me a letter and had it to me unexpectedly.
I wish you would tell me to be dressed, and say your taking me somewhere.
I wish you would dedicated a song to me.
I wish you would pick out a movie to us to watch, even though you hate love stories.
I wish you would take time to look in my eyes like you use to.
I wish you would judge me for the women I have become and not the girl I use to be
I wish you would kiss me even when im mad at you
I wish you would send me text messages when you miss me, tell me you love me and how beautiful you think I am.
But most of all I wish you would have courage to do everything your to scared to do
This is the time to realize that in a relationship you make an ass of yourself but you do it for love.

BE HAPPY

Come lay down let me tell you a story of a man who vowed to love his wife as

long as there is still a heartbeat in his body. He took his vow to show her that
this ever lasting love will never perish because another women is trying to
enter his household. This man saw a vision many years ago that showed his bride
as her. When he got down on his knee he knew that the lover that he had in his
life would be the last. So on that he vowed to love her, honor her, and give her
to love that she has been dreaming about for years.

This women dreamed of being loved by a man, who could sweep her off her feet.
Only problem was she did not know what that looked like. She was always taught go
for the better never settle for the right now. When this man she believed she love
vowed to love her, she vowed to find better. But until that day came she would marry him
so that the thought of being alone would not enter her mind. As she came across man who were
ok,
alright for the moment,
not quite husband material,
she noticed that the man she vowed to love was all that she needed after all.
But the man who once said I do, no longer wanted to keep his vows because his trust had been
betrayed. So as she finally fell in love with her husband. He husband had began to move out
because she wasn't the lover that he thought she was.

* people always try to find better without realizing whats in front of them. People never allow
themselves to be happy because they always wonder what if. We as a society need to rethink the list
we made as kids...saying I want this and that in a man/ women when the person that is good for you
is in front of you be we are just too selfish to see it.*

Dear stalker, paparazzi, wannabe journalist

You never know who is watching lurking around a corner
ready to take a glimpse into your life
for their own satisfaction
DEAR STALKER, PAPARAZZI, WANNABE JOURNALIST GET A LIFE STOP TALKING ABOUT MINE

I never invited you into my life so why do you believe you know so much about it
People come into your life just to write a book
They gather false information and call it true

I'm glad that you try to create entertainment as I live my life
However those brutal lies have nothing to do with my journey
But your infatuation with my life gives me the push I need to succeed
You see people like you encourage me to move beyond Brooklyn
To move beyond Oswego
As you write your fictional story
I will bow knowing that my life was so pleasurable that someone had to create
lies in order to get to know me

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Hands shake
tears fell
stomach feels a way I am rather unsure of
toilet flushes with all the things you said to me earlier
and then your back comes into vision as it heads toward the exit sign.
There is no string to pull you back
but rather batteries in your back to keep you moving forward.
The past has faded as if it was all a dream.
And now we are in categorizes that we could not change if we wanted to.
The footsteps you have started to make have been in cement
while ours has been in clay that has long sense washed away.
Making an effort one day can not compare to the
everlasting disaster that you have caused.
The moment my eyes started to blink everything had changed
I keep blinking my eyes asking if this all is real.
Because it seems like with confident comes ignorance.
Everything begins to sound nice
but actions are never made in the direction I am.

Road of Love

I don't know how to feel sometimes. Not use to feeling so useless, this thing called love got me open and I am scared. Like I don't understand how he can mess up but I still want him at that very moment. This love thing is rather funny, not sure if I am ready for it but its here. The one thing I do not do is run for it. I am most definitely scared but I will not run...because once you run you may never get the opportunity again. So I stand there taking the blows that love have to offer. Everything is not love but the pure satisfaction I get from being with him is. Just a scary road to be on when you are not sure of the destination. I don't want to think of my heart as a game but simply it is. We search to find someone that completes us, makes us all bubbly inside. I will definitely say love is cruel and can break your heart. But I think its worth it......

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As you walk into the room

you make me sick

I think of all the rumors that have left your lips and I want your tongue to fall out.

I am sick of seeing amazing girls limited to titles

labels

the ones you and your friends so happily put on them for your amazement

you see

when I see you

I start to imagine the tears that have been shed over your words

the lives that can be destroyed

with the flick of your tongue

Then you walk into the room as if you are hot shit

HOW?

what is there to be proud of

the words you have given others

are only a blanket to your life.

People who talk can't take

Therefore you want to lash before someone has the chance to expose you.

“Gossip is a sort of smoke that comes from the dirty tobacco-pipes of those who diffuse it: it proves nothing but the bad taste of the smoker.” George Eliot quotes