Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Nothing

I hit a wall I scream I can't reach it Just say it again
Say it like you mean it Don't say you no longer fill it I know its there
We just got to break this wall This wall is everything standing between us
If we do it together it will work Do you want to do it I know you do
Just say those faithful words again NOTHING CAN COME BETWEEN US

There’s something I wanna say
Something that I’ve been holding back
Can’t let it go another day
Let me start by saying that

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing, means more than the truth.

And truth is that I realize, love is fading from your eyes
Don’t know how it came to this, but we gonna get it fixed tonight
Cus nothing, nothing,
Nothing, is worth losing you

Tell me what could the problem be, that’s got you drinking way too much
What could it be ’bout us
Don’t you tell me not right now, I can’t let it go
(I can’t let it go, no I can’t let it go, Oh nooo)

What can I do to help you see,
That there’s no need for jealousy or insecurities
I’ll do anything you want
You can even have the password to my phone

Because nothing, nothing
Should come between us
Trust in me
Trust in me

We should cherish every moment like it’s the last
Trust in me
Trust in me



Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Forever??


People always say they want something to last forever, but is anything forever. We can’t determine the fabric of life what want everything to be forever.

“I want to love you forever”

“I wanna be forever young”

Without even knowing what forever is, we want to use it, claim it in our most deepest expression. We stamp the word forever on our greatest moments as if it is suppose to last long. But since we know forever is not guaranteed, then what are we saying to the people we love. There are multiple vocabularies words that can replace a word that is caught up in the fabric of time.

Forever can equal never

Forever can equal a day

Forever isn’t the word that I want to describe my life. I want to love you as long as I live. I want to be young as long as I live. I don’t know when I will live this earth but I know forever is not promised.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

What am I

As I sit in my living room
Everything has turned to dust
There is a faint smell of death that lingers in the air
The tv is set to what use to be his favorite show
I watch him as he watches his show
He seems so amused
Everything looks so different
But him
He seems happier than ever
As I try to grasp him face so that he could look at me
My hand goes right through his body
I try again
And again
But still I can’t feel his face
He leaves his chair and walks write through me
I run to the nearest mirror
And I notice that I am transparent
Seems like over the years
I lost my soul
I lost my value
Now there is nothing left to me
I no longer exist
I am nothing
But a hologram
I am forever trapped in that day
The day I let him put his hands on me
Now I will forever be a memory
Because I didn’t leave when I had the chance to

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

My man is jealous

Is he jealous?
You see this relationship does not involve sex
he just has the ability to listen to me when something is on my mind.
I do not understand why my boyfriend is jealous
I mean yea I do talk to him at all hours of the night
but my man has my heart
I don't understand why he is not happy for me,
this man is allowing to grow within myself.

So why is he jealous?
Does he not support me
I am happy
my man makes me happy and so does he
just be happy for me
be happy for me
the ability to type my feelings up on Mr. Blogspot
is not easy for me
but its helping me become a better person by growing
So why be jealous of that?

Views on Love

Sometimes we have a conversation with no words
we enter the land of our love
where we both understand each other
we stare into each other eyes and we represent passion
he hugs me to say he missed me.
I kiss him on his neck to reassure that he knows I love him
We grab hold of each other hands to know that we can count on each other

People get lost in what the word love is instead of enjoying the moments that you and your spouse spend together. being in love is one of the best feelings. One of the best emotions to have, but you must know what to do with it. Love does not come with an instruction book. There is no how, it is a try anf fail mission. but you must keep trying to make it work. When it is time to let it go you will know. People don't understand that love is different for everyone and as long as you know what love is in your relationship you will be ok. This is not to say that love is everything yiou need but if it is your foundation you can't go wrong.

Waking up alone


Toss and Turn
Toss and Turn
and I wake up to nobody
but I went to bed with somebody
was it all a dream
as I wake up screaming your name
sweat forms on my body
but I can't tell the difference between sweat and my tears.
Where did you go
was I not worth it to stay until the sunrise
You creep out in the middle of the night as if we were
some sort of one night stand
I wake up looking for your stuff but everything is gone
all that is left is an imprint of your head in the pillow
the same pillow I cried in
you left me
at that moment I felt like nothing
felt like you couldn't get away from me fast enough
felt like being with me that night was a past time.
do I allow you back in my bed to wake up to the same fear?