Camp Life

Where is my place?
I am at a job that can help my career.
But it doesn't come with the staff I want
Is this all a lesson that i am suppose to learn
What is a girl to do when she no long comes first in her life?
This job has taking away from my sanity and is just forcing me to live
not live as myself but just live in this world in order to survive.
I want to be men again, I worked so hard to accomplish myself
to feel proud of myself
and now one job has put me in an envirnoment
where I don't know where I am

ALONE

Here is the test you either past or fail
but do you ever past but still feel as if you failed. Well that is how i feel at the moment.
I feel like at times I have set my bar so high that my happiness can never be reached.

I notice that I like to be alone
because happiness isn't always something that was meant for me.
I fight myself but I never win.
Seems like I have still never define my soul therefore at times i do not know who I am

Things don't come easy for me
at times i sit and wonder do I deserve this.
What is my destiny because at times I feel that I will be miserable because
thats how i feel when I am alone.

Alone is what I feel
I feel like no one really knows me
even the people that is closes to me,
I feel like they don't try hard enough to get to know me

Alone is what I feel, even in a crowded room its just me ALONE